WHY ME? This can use in two different way, like any other thing in the world. Positive or Negative. You can be grateful and humble, while saying the Why Me. You can as depressed this time, when you ask yourself that, you suffer but you don’t know what you did in the first place to every single thing in your life go wrong. You don’t know how things gone wrong.

Gradually you start to think you deserve whatever you’re going through. There must be some bad you’ve done to suffer this. And slowly you start hate yourself, assume others too. You push people away in the fear of getting pushed away one day. You choose solitude because you don’t want to hurt those who you consider yours. People left like they were waiting to be pushed away.

You’re left all alone, you’re not hurting anyone like you want it to be. But it’s not feeling good. You realize you want people, but you can’t be with any of them who you scare away. They found life away from you, far from your presence. You know you can’t just go and say whatever in your mind. You can hear your mind crying for help, a human presence, while staring at roof at 1am. Now you hate you more to be this way, not normal, like the ones around you. You blame yourself. And you hate yourself more.