Imagine friends going to higher studies or getting jobs, while you’re at home 24/7 not doing anything even if you want to, so badly but just can’t because you’re too tired emotionally. You distance people because you thought you’re not … Continue reading I’m an army too..
I was blank when they asked “What makes me happy? ” I’ve literally forgot how it feels like to be happy from the beginning of 2020. Doesn’t mean that my life is miserable,there have been moments where I’ve been happy sincerely, but I don’t know nothing touches me the way it used to be. I really don’t know how to put these into words, like in a situation you know how you’re supposed to be felt but you’ve to act it up. You’ve to laugh loud when someone crack a joke just to fit in. Maybe that’s why I made … Continue reading Happiness
Sitting here after a long time took me back to those teenage days, when this place used to be my hangout place in home before she got my own room. She’d sit here with a book (no phone since got one after went to college) with songs from amma’s phone along the vehicle sound from road opposite. She was always a daydreamer, at least a story with two different plot comes to my mind each day. Sometimes she played it on my own as me the female lead though she do it too but only in my mind. Suddenly everything … Continue reading Nostalgia
Never Not playing in the background, she’s tapping her feet under the sheets to the music, smiling when her favorite part came up. The rhythm is like a mood buster, maybe her comfort zone. Clock showed 0:51, but she’s still awake. Alot things happening. No. Nothing is happening these days. She in her room alone, is the only thing happening right now. There was no way sleep is coming any time soon, insomnia has became a habit nowadays. Sometimes lay still thinking about the not going to happen category or worrying about the future. It’s been a year since she … Continue reading Midnight
Like any other day, today also it’s raining heavily and I was in my room lying on the bed listening to my slow kpop playlist and scrolling through sns, it suddenly came to my head that would have I loved me if I’m me but from outside. It’s complicated to even think again as to put in words. Would have I liked me at least as a friend? What’d be it to be like have a friend as me to me? Song changed, rain got louder outside. I decided to write down the random thought which was unlike me. I battled … Continue reading Thoughts.
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