Love

Love. What is love?? I know, it conveys a lot of meaning. But ultimately love is something we love, when we can love anyone or anything just because we love them. That freedom is love. There should be no one putting restrictions to whom we love. She was reading the excerpt she had written in her notes a while ago. It’s still dark there, stomach growling. Slowly she stood up and turn the remaining lights off and closed those eyes so tight wishing to get some sleep but seems like the hungry stomach not gonna let her sleep. Appa screaming … Continue reading Love

Nightmares

She woke up suddenly, in all sweating like just been on rain.  There was some kind of fear or clueless kinda expression on her face. She sat there staring at the wall for a few seconds and then opened her diary to write what she saw. It has became her habit to write journal of her nightmares.      The idea first striked after having a lot of weird nightmares everyday. Everyday started with this confusion of knowing but not remembering feeling and it’s so frustrating. Now it’s the first thing she does after wake up even though it is incomplete to … Continue reading Nightmares

Nostalgia

Sitting here after a long time took me back to those teenage days, when this place used to be my hangout place in home before she got my own room. She’d sit here with a book (no phone since got one after went to college) with songs from amma’s phone along the vehicle sound from road opposite.      She was always a daydreamer, at least a story with two different plot comes to my mind each day. Sometimes she played it on my own as me the female lead though she do it too but only in my mind.         Suddenly everything … Continue reading Nostalgia

Midnight

Never Not playing in the background, she’s tapping her feet under the sheets to the music, smiling when her favorite part came up. The rhythm is like a mood buster, maybe her comfort zone. Clock showed 0:51, but she’s still awake. Alot things happening. No. Nothing is happening these days. She in her room alone, is the only thing happening right now. There was no way sleep is coming any time soon, insomnia has became a habit nowadays. Sometimes lay still thinking about the not going to happen category or worrying about the future. It’s been a year since she … Continue reading Midnight

Thoughts.

Like any other day, today also it’s raining heavily and I was in my room lying on the bed listening to my slow kpop playlist and scrolling through sns, it suddenly came to my head that would have I loved me if I’m me but from outside. It’s complicated to even think again as to put in words. Would have I liked me at least as a friend? What’d be it to be like have a friend as me to me?       Song changed, rain got louder outside. I decided to write down the random thought which was unlike me. I battled … Continue reading Thoughts.