I was blank when they asked “What makes me happy? ” I’ve literally forgot how it feels like to be happy from the beginning of 2020. Doesn’t mean that my life is miserable,there have been moments where I’ve been happy sincerely, but I don’t know nothing touches me the way it used to be. I really don’t know how to put these into words, like in a situation you know how you’re supposed to be felt but you’ve to act it up. You’ve to laugh loud when someone crack a joke just to fit in.

Maybe that’s why I made myself more reserved than before coz I don’t want to act like I care but in reality I can’t. I almost lost hope of being a “normal” human I used to be. It’s funny how I used being something that I was used to be, but half of me wish the opposite as I start liking this solitude alot now. So, where were I??? Yeah I almost lost hope and started to blame myself for whatever happening, there I met an angel who showed me hope, taught to love myself and accept the way I’m. I found comfort in them, not that they do something to comfort but their existence itself is comfort. I was clueless and irresponsible when I first met them, but they became my inspiration to do something out of my comfort zone, attempt new things that way I found my talent which brought me here and obviously the reason I’m writing this now. Now I’ve plans to go on. Through them I saw how world works, new things, what’s going on in the world. I was literally introduced to an another aspect of this world which I never knew.

Why am I talking about them when the whole thing was about happiness… Right?? It’s them who became my happy place when I had no hope, so it’s them. My Happiness. They taught me happiness is not something you feel when you achieve or get something. The reason can be so small or a big one, happiness is same. I feel happy now because I wrote something afters many days (haha obviously because of them). It maybe the peace of mind, or a reassurance that everything is going to be okay or a baby smiling at you or making parents proud or meeting your loved ones or even a cup of coffee.